Baby Shower TOMORROW!!! Oh and NUBAIN!!!

Things are getting more exciting every day, and time is FLYING!!! I remember the name of the drug that I will get during labor and it's NUBAIN!! YAY FOR DRUGS!!! This is very exciting. I talked to my OB yesterday, and she said the baby looks tall! EVEN COOLER!!!! But, back to the important stuff...DRUGS!

I told her that I think that if she gives me a dose or two of the Nubain and gets me all loopy and feeling good, THEN give me the epidural! Although, I am still riding the fence some about this... But I am trying to have faith that when the times comes and I am in labor, I JUST WON'T GIVE A FUCK - JUST GET ME OUTTA PAIN!!!!!! But I am afraid of the epidural still. Andrea's didn't take, and she had to have 2, and she can still feel it when it gets cold outside. Also, I read that there is a ZAP when they are doing it, or shortly thereafter as it is taking effect, and that is frightening. THe ZAP I think shoots down your back and legs, and doens't sound fun! But maybe I just won't care. Who knows.

So the shower is tomorrow, and I am very excited. I got the 5 hostesses footed crystal containers with lids, that are really pretty!!! After carefully opening each box, and giving a throrough inspection to each piece, I wrapped each one in a different pretty wrapping paper, and made the bows myself!! I also wrote thank you cards for the shower and will attach them to the packages. I took pictures of one out of the box, and of all the wrapped presents together looking oh so nice!

OH! My sister should be leaving Israel today or tomorrow, and coming back to New York, so she will arrive in AZ on Sunday!!! Very excited to see all the pictures and hear all about her trip (besides the 2 times she DRUNK DIALED ME!!! hehehehe)

Also, I would like to report my bathroom experience yesterday at the OB's office...I had to give a urine specimin as usual, but when I went to pee, I also had to poo. So, as I was holding the little plastic cup up, and was pushing some to squeeze out some pee, I was really not sure as to what was going to come out. THe pee started first, but then the rest was simultaneous! Very strange experience to have by the way. (PS: I didn't tell you to read this part, so if you are grossed out, oh well. At least I don't have hemmorhoids, like many women get!!!!)

I got my hair cut at Ulta yesterday, and was going to get a new polish and get a mani/pedi. I put a different color on each nail, and couldn't find one that I could not live without!! Believe it or not. So no new polist for me and no mani/pedi. Oh well.... I will paint my fingers tonite, and noone will see my toes. I mean they look fine polished, even though my last pedi was a month ago, but there are no paint chips or anything.

I am so bored right now at work, I really want a nap. And I need to stay for another 1/2 hour. But it sucks. I want to leave.

Stephanie cut my hair the same but styled it differently, and it looked really boyish/goofy yesterday. I left it the way she styled it just so Tina Charles, Tina's parents and Adam could see it. Funny - Tina's mother LOVED IT!! I mean RAVED about it. Noone else did though. It was funny cus she had a little wine, and 2 corona's and said something funny to Charles. So I said "Charles, I think Tina's mom is hitting on you!!" And she was blushing and giggling like a school girl. It was funny but quite a bit odd. I teased her for acouple minutes but let it go before it got too weird. It was funny though.

Later in the evening, she kept talking about the "rectal one", and Charles and I were mapping out the layout of the house they put an offer on. And we were joking about it, how she kept repeating it. We knew she meant the baby thermometer, but it was still funny.

She kept making fun of me and how observant I was being about the house they put an offer on. I was asking all sorts of questions about fixtures, and room sizes, and the front porch, the way the roof slanted upstairs next to the media room.... And she kept making fun of me. I didn't take it poorly, and I know that she was glad I was asking these things, because, as she said over and over again, that these were things she would have never thought to notice or ask about. But it got pretty old after a while. In the end, it turned out that everyone was asking questions and seriously discussing the house, even her. So I know she was glad I brought up some of those things.

So this morning, I showered and washed my hair, and put in 2 conditioners, and blew dry it, and added my root boost mousse, Redken Rewind, and styled it. I finished it off with some hairspray, and IT IS STAYING JUST LIKE WHEN I WAS IN THE BATHROOM THIS MORNING!!!!! I am so surprised! I am so HAPPY!!! I can't believe it is staying in place, and not falling! it didn't take too long, of course I wont do it every day... But it was kind of fun!

Okay, I have to go now....

More of week 29

So, the baby is super active, and that is very exciting. However, I was not able to really fall back asleep this morning after the alarm went off at 5:30. This is getting strange, because I am having more of a hard time falling back asleep. I WANT to sleep, I feel tired, but my body is just like "uh, no. NO more sleep". So I lay there and day dream some, flip, flop, get up and pee, flip some more... And alas, it's 8am and I should get up and go to the place where I am supposed to be working. BLAH! Even when I nap on the couch, which sleeping there has never been a problem, it is hard to fall back asleep. I will wake up having to pee, or my arm is falling asleep (and I am NOT!) or Niner barks, and Abby runs by squishing her orange (aka 'ohnge'). And I will come back to the couch, and lay there, day dreaming, longing to sleep (because at this point it may have been 30-45 minutes that I rested well), and I want more!

Niner began his thyroid pills last night. So, in a month he will be retested.

Poison Ivy has crept up again...only 2 small bumps on the top of my left wrist area, and a couple in the usual spot on my right arm. I also have the occasional (sometimes more than occasional) itchy spot on the back of my neck.

Tomorrow is goin to be a busy day! I have OB appt in the morning, need to get an oil change, get the hostess gifts and cards, remind Danielle about the shower, get nails done if possible, pick up dry cleaning, wrap gifts, haircut at 3pm, and then dinner at Charles and Tina's with her parents. ARGH!! No nap for me tomorrow, I guess...

My butt has been hurting lately after sitting too long. This gets to be a bit annoying...so I try to take more breaks. But still, it just gets annoying.

And I secretly tampered with the AC unit outside our office door today, because 74 is just a bit too hot. I stuck a paperclip in to change the temp to 72, and I feel much better. YAY for tampering.

OHOHOH I need chocolate.

I feel like I have eaten all day long, a pkg of cheese and crackers here, a nutri-grain bar there, then some grapes, my piece of chicken with spicy chick peas and buttermilk garlic mashed potatos for lunch, a small cucumber sliced up (which was great - Niner ate the end pieces this morning - who knew he liked cucumbers...) and now a Snickers bar.

Elliot is such a goofball...we have this table between our desks where he keeps paperclips and pens and rubberbands and stuff. But every time I need the scissors or the letter opener, they are in his desk drawer, and we ONLY HAVE ONE OF EACH!!!! So, when I use them, I put them in the Borden's Cottage Cheese container he uses for the pens and whatnot, so that we can both reach them later when needed. NOOOOOOOOOO.... he always puts them back in his desk drawer. And it's not so much that I can't get up and get them (cus I need the breaks...) but the convenience factor would be so much easier on both of us. He has never said anything about putting them back in the drawer, but clearly that is where he wants them. And it is just silly. Because he won't get me my own, and I am NOT about to buy my own office supplies.

I already brought in a phone today to replace his cordless (our office is like 15 x 15 and we have 2 old cordless phones which NEITHER one's battery holds a charge. I get like 5-10 minutes of solid talk time on mine before it just dies, and his...You always have to use on speaker phone because it NEVER charges. More suck!) Well, so I can't plug my phone in the wall, because there is only one outlet in this room that is connected to the phone line, and I have to bring in a splitter!!!! WHAT KIND OF CHEESE DICKER OPERATION IS BEING RUN AROUND HERE!!!!

This makes me want a second Snicker's.

Anywho...

This weekend is going to be busy, there is the shower Saturday at 11:30, and we have to be at the bout by like 5-6 ish... And somehow get all the gifts home.

Talked to Kelley this morning, and she told me that if we played those stupid baby shower games (how many squares of toilet paper are needed to wrap around mom's belly...etc....) that I would be a hypocrit, since her and I made fun of Andrea's at her baby shower. I told her I was already the hypocrit since I had then said that I didn't want kids...she told me I had just been lying about that!! UH NO! I was really sincere about not wanting kids for a VERY LONG TIME!! So what's the difference, a liar, a hypocrit??? Who fucking cares? And the thing about it is, that her voice mail from yesterday was that she BETTER not have to play any of those stupid games at my shower. And I told her today that I was a little nervous about the possibility of games, and everyone looking at me and judgeing me and my size yada yada yada. She told me to call the lady and tell her not to have any of these games because I don't like them. WELL, first of all, I am not calling anyone 3 days before the shower and making any changes, cus that is just rude! They have been planning this for well over a month! And secondly, I get that she is doesn't want to play them, and THAT IS JUST NOT MY PROBLEM!!!! She is the one that brought this all up on my voice mail, because she has an issue with it, not me. And I secretly like being the center of attention even if I am bigger than most people there. I AM FUCKING PREGNANT FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!!!! I just don't want to be judged harshly, and won't be because these are my friends and family. FUCK THEM if they judge!

Ahhhh, much better now.

Dylan and his boyfriend broke up, which is sad. Especially since it took the guy 3 weeks to finally break up via email!!!! What a DOUCHE! And Heather and Ang have quizzed me on whether Adam is a douche or not, and I stick with what I said. NO! He even went to Austin to break up with Carrie in person because he knew it was the right thing to do. AND SHE LIVED OUT OF TOWN!!!! My man is no douche! CONFIRMED!!

And we talked to Ethan last night, and he is doing very well. Playing with his band, re-met an onld girlfriend, and has created a new database that someone at his work got wind of and they may implement for the entire company of NASA! WOW! He was just working on this for himself to monitor whatever it is that he is doing, and some other people found out, and referred him to way upper management. And he is working on the showering area of the Russian Space Station. Apparently the people up there don't want to shower in the correct location, so there is mold growing on this thin metal divider. And the mold will make the metal disintegrate!! Which is bad. But the people are being brats and not complying with where to shower. So he has been elected to head a committee to figure out what to do. This is really exciting.

Oh, and he will buy a webcam so we can talk to him via the World Wide Web more often. Which reminds him that his band playing was being broadcast online and he didn't tell us. He told his mom, but forgot to tell his friends. SLACKER!!

Alright, going back to work now. YAY.......

Week 29

WOW! I have to say I am kind of afraid of week 30. It means that the countdown becomes a bit more real, and this is REALLYFUCKINGSCARY!!!!

I have been feeling pretty good. My bladder is getting squished, and I am now peeing between 3 and 4 times every night. But I am able to go back to sleep pretty fast, unless the baby is competing in the Unbeatable Banzuke (which is now my favorite show...BTW). And let me tell you, he is a fierce competitor when he gets going.

But for the most part, the pregnancy is going well, I am content to be pregnant, enjoying the feelings, and feel pretty good. My sciatic has not flared up in several weeks, and that is lovely. My lower back pains are not very frequent, maybe twice a week. I don't have a ton of energy, but still need to get those DAMN iron pills.

Hang on, I have to call the vet.

Niner has a low thyroid, and I need to get him pills for that. He also needs to take a baby aspirin twice a day, along with glucosamine chondroitin, and omega 3 fatty acids pills. My LITTLE FUZZY MANNNNNNN!

So, Sam's here I come. Better get them in bulk right?? Well, the iron pills I guess I don't need in bulk...Cus I don't know whether I need them after the babay (and yes I spelled it like that on purpose...) is born or not.

I am now going to see my OB every two weeks, which feels really frequent. Seems like I was just there, and I was about 10 days ago.

Okay, back to Niner, pills are 18.15 for a 90 day supply, which is good, and they will need to retest his thyroid level in 1 month. And we will go from there.

Now back to me. I am eating hummus for lunch. Yummy.

Oh, and my baby shower is this weekend. I am excited and a bit nervous. Nervous because that this also means that it will happen soon. Birth that is.... I still get these WTF???? moments when I can't believe I am going to be a parent, a MOM raising a CHILD!!! I get them often. AND it's effing scary! But there is no turning back now. I sometimes have the fear of what if I don't like the boy? Like what if he is a HUGE fan of Nascar and country music? Or what if we just don't get along? Of course I won't know this until WAY later, and have alot to go thru before those days....but that doesn't mean I dont get scared.

I want Adam to be by my side at the shower, not walking around taking photos, and videotaping. I need to be able to hold his hand, and whisper silly questions in his ear. I need to be able to feel his energy pass through his skin into mine!! This is making tear up some...

I don't mind being the center of attention, but everyone will be looking at me, and talking about how big I'm getting (even though it's a good 'big'), and it's just kinda awkward.

Erin called from Israel last night. She was drunk, and it was 2am there. She started falling asleep on the phone and still talking, dreaming I guess, and when I asked her "what did you say?" she asked me"what", and I said 'no, what did YOU say?" and she didn't know because she had fallen asleep. She was cracking me up!! She would tell Adam all the cool places she had been and things she did, and she would tell me about the drinking! haha Of course Adam knew to ask her "have you been here, there..." and I didn't know those places. But it was still pretty dang funny.

OH, it's raining. We may loose power! haha The building seems to loose power often when it rains. I really wouldn't mind because then I could go home. Of course, I wouldn't get paid....

Better go, and get something done here just in case we do loose power.

Week 28, baby weighs 2lbs and 11oz.

And he is at the 44 Percentile. Which is great! I don't want him too big... OUCH!

He is developing just fine and on schedule. This week is exciting because for one: I AM NOT DIABETIC!!! YAY!! I am hypo-glycemic, which is okay. This means that I need protein and complex carbs every 3 hours or so. Which, I was told this back in rehab, and do pretty much eat a little every 3-4 hours, so this fits in fine with my daily routine. So this is very good news.

Danielle's wedding is tomorrow. The rehearsal dinner is at Jacque's tonite at 6pm sharp. I really hope I don't have to go to the wedding rehearsal tonite at 8:30, cus, I am not in the wedding. I guess we will get there around 9am tomorrow morning. The wedding is at 9:30, and then reception at Mimi's thereafter. I got my pants hemmed at the dry cleaners and need to pick them up today. I hope the big elastic band around my waist doesnt STILL flop down every time I sit down, but I imagine it will. I will wear those pants tonite, and the khaki ones tomorrow with my black top. That will be cute. Oh, and I have to get them a card. Dad and Lonna Rae have the gift we went in on together. I hope they like it. It is a havdalah set. It is silver and really pretty. Adam and I don't have a havdalah set. I would like one, but the one that matches our mezuzah is like 160...or so. Although Lonna Rae can get a discount at the temple gift shop, we have more important things to purchase. LIKE BABY STUFF!!

Mom finally told her boss that I'm "with family", which I am not sure he understood, and her and I laughed about. I told her I had never heard that terminology before. Very odd.... But then she made some comment about the blood work for my pregnancy blah blah blah, and he finally got it. She said it was some old fashioned saying. WHATEV! Nice that he knows though.

She is starting to get pretty excited. And per Felicia, they had a "talk" with her about becoming excited and involved when they were in Chicago for mother's day. Glad to hear that! Mom did not know what a onesy was, and I thought that was pretty interesting, but she was adamant about cloth diapers and services and such, which I am not sure we can afford. She did say that she wanted a list of the "ABSOLUTE NECESSITIES NEEDED TO BRING HOME THE BABY", so I will email her a list. I told her the thing I was concerned about was that we get the baby mattress. Because the baby really can't sleep on the mattress we have...it is used and there are 2 small holes. And the fact that the mattress is too squishy for him to sleep on safely.

Anyways, Adam and I went over our list and found the necessities, and there are a few things that are more necessities in my mind than in his (surprise, surprise, surprise!!) I will send these off to Harriet. I know she will disagree with some items, but they are small and I will need them. Like the boppy! She will NOT know what a boppy is, but it is VERY important in breastfeeding. It holds the baby up to my breast level so that I don't have to hold him up there myself AND try to feed. Also, better than pillows, because pillows are big and bulky and I may not get them back into that same position again without disturbing the baby. This is SUPER IMPORtANT!! He will already be crying and want to be fed, the easier and less maneuvering the better. (i know, keep justifying...) BUT I WANT IT!!!!!!!

I also need an additional boppy slip-cover, for when one is being washed. Diapers, apparently Charles says we will change the baby around 7 times per day! EEGADS... and Diaper Wipes, the Johnson's bathtime essentials gift set for when we bathe the baby (and yes this may only be sponge bathing every few days or so, but still, he will be born in dead summer, and spitting up alot! This will also require the Safety 1st Comfy Bath Center, which is only $15 at Babies R Us.

Now I know that the Prince Lionheart Table Top Diaper Depot is not necessary to bring home the baby, but will make those 7 diaper changings per day much easier, and at $13, who can kvetch??

The Dr Brown's Natural Flow Deluxe Gift Set of bottles is $49, but will make Mommy get some sleep when Daddy is feeding the baby in the night! We will also need the Dr Brown's sterilizer. Okay, the bottle warmer is not so majorly important. Hot water is still available even with the price of gas! (gas water heater).

We will need the boppy changing pad cover set to hold the little tike as we change and pamper his little tushy. Can't have him laying on the hard wooden surface of his changing table!!!

The pump and save bags are very important. I am not listing the breast pump as mandatory, because Tina will let us use hers as long as we return it (along with everything else she lends us) when we are done. And if someone buys us the pump, maybe we will use it, maybe we will return it for store credit. Unsure at this point in time.

I will ABSOLUTETY need the Avent Breast Shields!! My nipples will be sore, and this is a necessity! Along with the Medela disposable nursing bra pads, nipple protectors, and the tender care lanolin to moisturize! Need I say more....

We need the First Years Double Scrubber Bottle Brush.

THE ALL IMPORTANT CAR SEAT. And I don't care what Frances and Harriet say, I am not BUYING OR ACCEPTING ANYTHING OTHER THAN A BRAND NEW SEAT. (her life was in you hands, dude!!!) We also need the car seat base. The two stage care seat protector, which protects our leather from being damaged with the car seat resting there for YEARS, is not necessary to bring home the baby. I am trying to be somewhat practical here folks!

The baby monitor, yes, needed. First Aid Kit, YES needed. Pacifiers, yet NEEDED! Pacifier clip, to hold pacifier to clothing if it falls (or otherwise) out of baby's mouth? NEEDED. Breast therapy balm, yep, you guessed it, NEEDED.

SleepSack, needed. However, Tina may give us some that Claire grew out of.

Mattress pad, NEEDED. Diaper Genie Twistaway refills, NEEDED. I think Tina will give us her diaper genie too.

The First Years Air Flow Sleep Positioner, NEEDED. Receiving blankets, needed. Swaddlers, needed.

Carter's 3-pack lap pads (in animal prints...hehe) NEEDED!!! I don't want spit up rolling down any parts of me that I can prevent!!!

Dreft - needed. Sorry baby, can't wash your things in tide and downy yet!

OKAY! That about covers the must have's. Not too bad.... We will see what Harriet says. But I really don't need her to agree completely, and I know she won't. And that is OKAY!

There are a couple things I need to remove from the registry, but don't want to go there because I don't really want to know what has been purchased. And Adam SURELY doesn't want to know. Oh well, if we get all 3 car seats I accidentally registered for(2 of one kind and one of another...), well store credit will do.

And, back to collection calls it is.....

Week 27 - Blood tests...yuck

Well suck! To quatlify as anemic, my blood has to be 34 and under. Guess what? I am 33.8!!!

AND!!! To qualify as Gestationally Diabetic, my blood has to be over 140. IT'S 151!!!!!

So this means, next Tuesday I have to fast, no food or water after midnight on Monday, and be at the lab for a 3 hour test beginning at 8am.

Not so fun.

They told me I would have my results by Thursday, and on Friday afternoon they call with the "bad fail" news. I failed, but badly.

However, 15 % of all women who fail the first diabetes test, pass the second one. And it can be monitored with diet and excercise.

Told Mom, and of course she just KNOWS that I will be diabetic forever now. How encouraging. I love her supportive self!

Well, otherwise the pregnancy is going well. My one muscle on the top left side of my belly hurts quite frequently. Daily, more often alot.

And Elliot is KILLING me at work. I really don't want to come back here when the baby is born. I KNOW there are more part time jobs out there. And I wouldn't have to take his condescending, chauvanistic, "B-I-L-L" bullshit. I could have dropped out of 10th grade and he would not treat me any different.

COCK-ASS!

Sleeping is still okay, except for around 5:30-6:00, I can't really sleep much thereafter. And that sucks. Especially if I can't get a nap in the daytime.

I dreampt about a a man who, below his penis, had no balls, but a clitoris! And then I went down on him, after being at some school away from home where we were growing "herbs", and working at an indoor growing lab/store. I had some things I was growing there, and needed to take them home when the class was ending, and needed to do it privately. SO I began trusting this guy there to help me get all the equipment and stuff out in his van or suburban (it was white - with alot of windows). The dream was very real. I went down on him towards the end of my dream. And Adam was there somehow, but he knew that my relationship with this other guy was just to get everything out of the store/lab place. Everything was kept in these 2 3x3x3 cubbies just off the floor to the right of my lab space. And near the end, the guy told everyone else in the class to see what was in there, but didn't tell him it was all mine.

It was all very strange.

Adam was a bit bothered by the hermaphroditic part of my dream, at first. As was I. Although it seemed quite normal in my dream, just like something I hadn't yet experienced.

WHORE-MOANS, gotta love 'em.