Another moment to post

And I am on my hubby's pooter. The settings are different, and time is of the essence. Also, the keyboard is, well, not mine!!

Jacob is in his jumper, and we are listening to XM's love songs. It is great!!! However, it hardly quells the pain I feel for my dear friend. She is going thru a horrible loss. We took her to the airport yesterday, crying, sad, and I can only imagine (even though I don't want to know that kind of pain) what she is dealing with.

I lost my cousin. Julie. She died 5 years ago. An only child. In her first tri-mester, with her first child. She was out of town. In Boston, with her husband of just a couple years, looking for a new home. He was in the Armed Forces being transfered halfway across the US from where they lived. She had heartburn, or so she thought. Finally, on her mother's birthday, while her mom was on vacation in Hawaii, her mom convinced her to go to the hospital. She went. I don't know what they found, but the next day, a Saturday, they did emergency open heart surgery. They found that one of her heart valves was deficient. Probably a birth defect noone ever knew about. The doctors determined that if they proceded with the surgery, her heart would would harder than it ever had and may not be able to handle the workload. SO they sewed her up. She died and hour later..... She was 34, and this was 34 days after my grandma, her grandma too, passed at the age of 94.

My father, with his complete lack of sensitivity...and other things, called me while I was shopping at super target with Kelley, and just told me. Right then and there. No warning...no where are you...no come over for a bit....just that Julie was gone. I WAS IN PUBLIC!!!!! Not at all prepared for this. Her birthday was 4 days after mine, but she was nearly 5 years older. We were close. Very close. I screamed. Cursed. Yelled. Cried. RIght there in the middle of the candle section.

I have never written about this.

And I am inspired to get it out.

Now I have to stop this, and go make dinner...by adding protein.

I hate that they all have to go thru such a