Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Mid 25th week

Things are moving fast! I keep having these whelming feelings that we are going to be parents. We are going to have to instill values and morals into a fresh new human being. We are going to have to teach by example, and offer opportunities, and give advice, and repromand...A CHILD!! This will have bearing on the rest of his life! OMG!!!

And I worry a bit about labor. More than that, I worry that it will happen so fast there won't be time for the DRUGS I have been looking forward to for the last 6 months. I don't want to give birth, like Keita, in the backseat of the car. Of course I don't have to worry about my 2 year old watching and listening from the front seat, like she did. I would be cursing like a freaking sailor, if I were giving birth in the back seat of a car...OFF THE TOLLWAY!!! After having my hubby write a check to the tollbooth lady, who was so insensitive to let them pass without paying the FORTY CENTS or so. Wow! What an ordeal.

Anyways, my boss Elliot and I got into a really bad argument yesterday. He is not very intelligent, and really doesn't get the fact that I am a very fast learner, fast paced, and way out of his league as far as brains go. Not being mean....just honest. I have run multi-million dollar businesses! And his one man show, and his attitude..ARE KILLING ME!!! He treats me like I am 3, yells at me all the time, and for this I am making SHIT money! I am not sure I will come back after the baby is born. I am just not sure. I realize I am hormonal and kooky. But I really try to not get upset with him until he has gone way over the top, with either yelling, or belittling, or condescending... I KNOW HOW TO SPELL BILL!!! B-I-L-L, he said to me 3 times one day. I almost walked out!

ARGH!

Oh well. I am going home now! See ya!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Week 25 and I feel fine!

Also got a raise today! YAY!!

Babe Habee has been pushing my lower abdomen with elbows or hands alot in the past day or two. Like right now. Feels like he is doing some power walking, without the walking part. Or maybe that TaiBo excercise where you pretend you are hitting the small boxing bag above your head. It is lot of movement and happening pretty quickly. Also, began getting some feet movements in my upper abdomen, nearing my ribs. This, I remember. But it still feels strange. Some of the motions lately make me feel a bit noxious, yet I don't want to throw up. But, they are pushing and poking in some strange places.

Per Dr. Nopain, the baby weighs 1.7 pounds as of last Thursday, and is doing very well. We saw his face some on the monitor and that was really weird. Of course it is in black and white, but it is pretty close to seeing a real person. Getting more detailed every time we go. This is all still very odd to me.

Had a scare/anger moment earlier, Adam slipped up and told me there was a 2nd bomb threat at his work. This made me freak out! I had to hang up. he didn't want me to worry, which, after pondering/feeling the stupid emotions of it all, I UNDERSTAND (yes, I said it...). but still became very upset. The first one was last week. This time, though, since the threat was against the animal lab, they evacuated that floor and his floor since he is right above the animal lab. FOR 2 HOURS!!! They found nothing, which was very good. Still worried me though. Course, his mom called while they were all outside, and he told her what was happening...but not me. I was upset about that too. He didn't tell her not to tell me, he just hadn't told me yet. Okay, done...over it. Although, we are pricing all this life insurance right now, which seems to add to the scariness of it all.

Anyways, enough of that!

Let me type about my weekend! I spent most of saturday shopping...and having a sad mood swing because I miss Erin so much. I called Adam crying, after pulling over and told him that I was sad and missed her. I was listening to music, and the weather was beautiful, and running errands, and miss her. So, I gathered myself together, and then called Erin...and cried some more. She did have some trouble deciphering my words a bit, but I was able to repeat myself so she could understand. I think it made her feel good that she is not the only one who feels these crazy feelings. So we talked about her upcoming trip to Israel, and her school, and how she has been partying more since her big birthday, and school has been suffering. Funny, she will be out of town for Jared's birthday, and he wasn't able to go out for her birthday...

So, I finished my shopping, and came home to relax, and then cook a bunch for Danielle's shower. I made some fabulous sandwiches: Tarragon-caper egg salad with Norweigen smoked salmon and watercress on some lovely rolls (sourdough, 3 seed, and 10 grain). I also made portobello sauteed with onions on pumpernickel with red leaf lettuce, tomato, and a tahini sauce. The mushroom mixture was kinda spicy with the cajun seasoning I added. But it was great. Then I had some cubed white cheese overnight soaking with green olives, tomatos, artichokes in olive oil. I had some cheese from Spain that was just like brie but a little milder, with some crackers and a sliced up french baguette loaf. There were grapes and pineapple, and carrots, and then Ang made some delicious desserts! lemon white chocolate ganache truffles with blueberry in the middle, carrot cake mini muffins with cream cheese icing and little carrots on top, and tuxedo chocolate covered strawberries, as well as dark chocolate covered strawberries. MMMMM MMMMM MMMMMM!!!

Oh, so the limo picked me up at 10:15am, and we were off eating and drinking champagne on the way to the nail salon. Got manicures and pedicures, and then ate some more. Danielle opened her friend April's gift, and then we took April back to the nail salon. From there we picked up Jacque and more champagne, and headed to low tea at the very special hotel where Ang had her 30th birthday party. We sat in the same area! HA!

There we stuffed our faces on 5 different sandwiches, along with the Rainforest Mote' tea. Then we had a golden raisin scone with devonshire cream and strawberry jam served with the vanilla bean tea. Then we had 4 desserts that included passion fruit cream cake, chocolate sesame crisp, mango maccaroon, and a raspberry torte served with the Pear Caramel tea. We were stuffed, but there were also white, regular and dark chocolate truffles to be had. Which...I did! :)

The limo took us all home, and I hit the couch at about 8:30 or so, after finding I had forgotten my house keys and had to call Adam to let me in. He, of course, was at Claire's house!

Lovely, lovely day!

Friday, April 25, 2008

Week 24

Beginning of the THIRD and FINAL trimester is here! WOW! I sure hope labor goes this fast. Well, wait a minute. That may mean it happens too fast for drugs, and that would be AWEFUL!!! I WANT DRUGS!!!!

Anyways, dreampt that AbbyGale had a hair ball behind her left shoulder and I was cutting it off as she was walking away from me. Hmm... decided baths were in order and I gave Niner a bath before Adam got home yesterday, and then he and I gave Abby one. They smell so fresh and clean... Honey I Washed The Kids from Lush is the best dog soap ever. Course it's not made for dogs, but it surely can be used on dogs!

Also, wake up with strange songs in my head EVERY FREAKING DAY!! It makes me not want to listen to music cus it hinders my restful sleep...singing to myself (and the baby) all damn night long. Adam doesn't quite understand. Cus periodically he will start to sing some song RIGHT BEFORE BED! And I am all "honey, don't sing that. I don't want it stuck in my head!" Ah, well...

Also, baby has been getting hiccups for the last week or so. A week ago Thursday I couldn't quite figure it out. There was this repeating in and out sensation in my lower belly. I was hanging out in the nursery (hehe sounds so funny to say) and flup-flup. After a while I realized that it was happening regularly and began to pay more attention to the sensation. SURE-AS-SHIT!!!! There it was. Hiccups. Happened twice that day. May have happened before and I just didn't know it! Now it seems to happen every other day or so. Which brings me to my oddbal questions:

1) How can he get the hiccups when he DOESN'T BREATHE AIR???

2) Does he sink with gravity in the amniotic fluid? Or does he just float around cus he doesn't breathe air? Or what?? Cus sometimes it feels as though he floats around. Just cus I am on my right side, doesn't mean I feel him sink down there.

3) We were at the nursery (OH OH OH! He has the hiccups RIGHT NOW!!!!) at the hospital before my Maternal Fetal Medicine (MFM) appointment for my third videotaping of the baby, and we saw a fresh new baby girl. Her ambilical cord had been cut (obviously) and was clipped with a CHIP CLIP!! Anywho...the belly button was pink like skin for about 1/2 inch, and then the other 2 inches or so was white. Like weird white. But it wasn't white right where the clip was, cus the clip was about halfway in the middle of the whole-piece-thing! It was white about 3/4 inch below the clip (towards the button of the belly) and then white for another inch or so beyond the clip. HOW DOES IT KNOW WHERE TO BE WHITE AND NOT BE WHITE? I guess the white part will die and fall off, but I am not really clear on how all this works. Very confused...

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OKAY! NOTE TO SELF...never eat mozzerella AGAIN while pregnant. I was so swollen for 24 solid (haha) hours, it was AWFUL!! I couldn't believe it! OMG! It was so bad!

So this brings me to think about all the crazy things that you may or may not experience while pregnant:

1) Hemmorhoids - well, so far so good, none of them plague me! Thank GOD!!

2) Sleep problems - again, chalk that one up to luck cus I sleep pretty dang good. 'cept for the strange dreams and songs that get stuck in my head. But as far as being comfortable, I am good to go!!!

3) Heartburn - none yet. Of course I feel really lucky that I didn't have worse morning sickness. I had some nausea but didn't throw up once! YAY!

4) Mood swings - okay let's not joke around here - THEY SUCK...and poor Adam having to put up with me when I "have a moment". Which the "moments" are really 2 different things. There is the a) restless, cranky, jittery leg thing when I am usually too hot, or uncomfortable, and Adam knows I need to go RIGHT TO BED... and then there is the b) mood swing. Which 'swing' is not the best word for this situation. It's more like a bomb, or crash, or jolt. It happens so fast, and is so intense that I know Adam just wants to turn and run for cover! Hell, I even want to run from myself! It sucks. I have had 2 VERY BAD ones, and many many many other not so bad ones. The worst one was at night, after Ang had left after being over, and I got NOTHING done but supporting her and her finance maintenance, and then Erin called and I should have not answered, or told her I would call back, because I was just stewing (funny word really) and it made things worse, and THEN, Adam was so tired, that he was falling asleep!!! during my intial vent session, which only FUELED MY FIRE!!! I called him a name I would have never ever ever even thought about calling him before, and told him to get outta my face!! It was a horrific experience! Now I am sure there was a second big mood swing,

A.D.D. - my new favorite word is INKLE!!! I decided this when I used the word inkling, and wanted to start using the present tense of this word in my every day lingo! I had an INKLE!! Say it. Out loud. NOW! It makes me giggle....hehehehe

Oh, and Danielle's shower is this weekend! Thank god! I need a mani/pedi and I am really looking forward to high tea at the Adolphus! It's so much fun! Plus, we get to ride around in a limo all day! YAY!! I have only been in limos for funerals! Never for prom, or wedding, or anything. It seemed to be too much money for what it was. But this will be great since we have the same limo all day, and we can store our food and champagne and sodas and gifts in there while we get pampered and have high tea. (i said high...heheh)

I am really excited about the tea because we are having organic verbena mint, vanilla bean, and pear caramel!!! And I have no idea what delicious treats will be served with the tea, but I know it will be special!

Ang is making chocolate covered strawberries, mini carrot cup cakes with cream cheese icing, and lemon blueberry truffles!!! DELISH!!!

I am making some exotic sandwhiches of which I haven't decided which ones yet. Maybe grilled open-faced vegie, pesto, and mozzerella sandwiches, or cucumber, radish and watercress with truffled goat cheese, or crisp cheese-filled eggplant sandwiches with pomegranate molasses (haha MOLE-ASSES!!!), or portebello mushroom with tahini sandwiches, or tarragon-caper egg sandwiches with smoked salmon, or grilleed gorgonzolla, pear and watercress sandwiches, or morccan carrot and goat chees sandwiches with green olive tapenade, or pita sandwiches with eggplant, peppers, tomatoes and cucumber, or grilled eggplant wioth lemon aioli, feta, and mint, or salmon and cucumber layered sandwiches!!! MMM...

My favorites are the first four! Grilled open-faced vegie, pesto, and mozzerella sandwiches, or cucumber, radish and watercress with truffled goat cheese, or crisp cheese-filled eggplant sandwiches with pomegranate molasses (haha MOLE-ASSES!!!), or portebello mushroom with tahini sandwiches.

WOW! Whatever shall I do????

Well, I guess I should get back to work now! DANG!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

I'm still wearing my dirty pee pants!

So as I am sitting down yesterday for my ummmm…4th pee of the day (at work), and as usual I use the toilet seat covers (first pull up, then pull down) I felt a bit of urgency and really needed to go PEE!! There it was, coming out in a rushhhhhhhh!! And IMMEDIATELY I realize that something is NOT RIGHT! I stop. Wait. Look down. And notice a small puddle had formed on the floor beneath me. SURE AS SHIT the dang toilet seat cover did not tear in its appropriate tearing place! My pee must have come out so quickly that it just rolled along the top of the thin sheet! This has happened here at work once before. And at that time, I had decided that I needed to help the toilet seat cover by tearing the front just enough to not fall into the toilet before I sat down, but enough to tear without question as I began to pee…..slowly.

SO! I slowly began to pee, which sucks to pee slowly when you are pregnant and need to go quite badly, but it’s what I did. I finish and get up to see a small puddle on the floor, and a small quarter sized dot of darkness on my jeans. FUCK! I clean everything up, wash my hands, and inspect the back of my pants. Nothing got on my panties (okay, let’s be honest, I am 6 months pregnant and REALLY not wearing panties anymore, they are more like granny panties, briefs, articles of clothing I would not otherwise be found DEAD in!) But, big as they are, they somehow avoided the spray.

I was, essentially, forced to wear mah dirty pee pants for the rest of the day!!

Ahhh the joys of pregnancy!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Week 23 - Middle of

Well here I am in mid-week 23. My feet are swollen and my flip flops are leaving marks across my tootsies! I have been sleeping better the week or so, and that has been nice. I did begin catching Adam's upper respiratory / bronchitis, so Dr. D put me on some antibiotics and OTC medicine as well. I have put on 9 lbs as of yesterday, which is not too bad. But I am certianly feeling the weight shifting as I become a little topsy turvy when I am standing and begin to walk. Seems like parts of me want to move in different directions! haha This has made for szome interesting visuals. My dreams the last few days have been either none, or forgotten. I do still wake up with songs in my head, usually something I heard the day before. I should start to list them, as I am somewhat amused by what gets stuck in mah brain!

Niner is getting older and I fear his eyesight is getting worse. The reflective blue that I see when looking in his eyes is more prevalent, and he seems to be squinting more, maybe it helps him see better. He also has been limping some, favoring his right front leg. But he gets on and off the bed and couch with no troubles, and doesn't complain.

Abby Gale is doing well. She seems to be a bit aware of what is to come in a few months, although it is hard to tell. But she has not been jumping on my belly as much when I get home from work.

Oh, and Niner and Abby can't really drive with me anymore, because Niner wants to sit on my lap, and well there isn't much lap left, between belly and steering wheel.

Meeting Brian and Rita for dinner tonight at a Greek restaurant. Sounds yummy. Will definetey take a nap at homr before I pick Adam up at the train stop.

Baby is moving around ALOT, and is seeming to establish time patterns. I am trying to keep track of them, but as far as I can tell, he is up by 8 or 9am, and is up every couple of hours from then on. Specifically right now, at 3pm, and around 6pm, and for sure between 9 and 10pm. It is very exciting.

Had lunch with Dad Monday, and he is just bursting at the seems awaiting his grandson!! THis makes me very happy! Although, neither Mom nor Dad really want to be responsible for the infant while I work. It is funny how Mom is like "I don't know what to do with a baby boy!!" and Dad says " I will help with a toddler, but not an infant." Just wait, I know this will change as soon as he is born. Well, and it doesn't really matter since Frances is SOOOO excited about having baberman on Mondays and Wednesdays!! So, since that has already been established, Mom and Dad can fight about it later.

Anyways, I am off work now to go home and nap.

Going to see Stephanie tomorrow with my big gift certificate from Ang and Heather to get my hair cut. I am a little upset that she will charge me $40, but I know she will do a great job showing me how to style it WITHOUT using a hair dryer! YAY!!

Later!!

Monday, April 7, 2008

Week 22

Well, here I am at week 22, and I wanted to put down some thoughts as to what is going on with me being pregnant.

I have had this all along - watery mouth. Sometimes when I am at services, and looking down to read, that drool may just leap out of my mouth. This is a very odd sensation. It happened more at the beginning, it seems, but still happens.

Now I have been getting yuck mouth, after everything I eat. Except red grapes, as far as I know. These seem to leave my mouth tasting fine. But EVERYTHING ELSE leaves a bad taste. This began a week or 2 ago. I eat a lot of gum, and mints now. Course I still don't eat large portions at once, but what I call small/normal sized meals, more often. Which is pretty much how I have always been.

I do love red grapes. I ate 1.66 lbs yesterday, alone. I know this because I bought them yesterday and ate them all!!

I do crave alot of fruit. I have to have my large glass of milk and large glass of OJ (tropicana pure premium, no pulp, with calcium!) every morning. This and my vitamin begins my day. Also, fills me up until about 10:30 or so.

I have been eating canned peaches and pears with cottage cheese, however I will not buy cottage cheese any more, because there is very little calcium in it, and it seems like a waste of food intake.

I eat alot of mandarin oranges, was eating alot of clementines as well. I drink Tree Top Apple juice, more often before than now, because I drink alot of orange juice.

My lastest "thing", and I would not call this a craving, because I have yet to send Adam, or myself out at odd hours to get this item, but I do eat it several times a week, is Braums 96% fat free vanilla frozen yogurt in a waffle cone. Large size please. Not only does this fulfill a cold sweet desire, but a good dose of calcium as well. And as much as I am loving my once peeling and flaking nails, growing longer and harder, they are getting a bit too long to take out my contacts! So I have been keeping my right thumb and forefinger trimmed some, as to not scratch my eyeball.

I am loving my materninty clothes. They are baggy and comfy!! However, the granny sized panties I am now wearing, are beginning to roll down the front onf my belly a bit. I can tell that I am growing more because of this. I got these all on 75% off clearance at Super Target, so the quality may not be the best. They also don't have hardly any elasticity, except for a small (super tiny) thin band of plastic like material (the clear kind you find in strapless bras and tops that you hang on hangers) around the leg hole and waist. This which has come out of a couple pairs already, after only a few wears, and so one side has SOME support nad the other leg has none! Don't wear those anymore. Seems to happen in the black pair, more so than any other color, which makes no sense to me....

Anyways, I am in week 22. This is very exciting. The baby has been getting more and more active in the last week, and sometimes keeps me up at night. I fear this trend will continue for the next year or better. But, it is nice. I have been trying to keep track of when he becomes active to see it there are patterns.

I do notice that around 9:30pm, he becomes active. And last night at 3am, he was doing gymnastics. This morning at 9am ish, he was swimming laps in the pool. I make these assessments based on the way it feels when he is moving around. One day a week ago or so, I swear it felt like he was shuffling cards, the way the motion and fluttering was happening all at once!

Well, I am glad to have this time to write these things down. I will try to continue doing this on a weekly basis, at least!