Week 37

WOW!! So many HUGE things going on right now. Adam and I discused and agree that we have never had so many HUGE things happening all at once!

Ex: Baby coming in A COUPLE WEEKS!
Charles, Tina, Claire and Sarah - gone to Bloomington for good TOMORROW!
Adam only has 1 year (or less) at UT, and will be looking for another job THIS FALL!!
(We thought we had 2 years or better for him, and this has been quite a shocker!)
The fact that we may be MOVING!!
The fact that we may be selling our house!!
THe fact that we may be MOVING to another city or state!!
The fact that we may be buying another house!!
Shau Yee left Adam's lab.
They are hiring someone to replace her.
Adam will be taking a month paternity leave.
I will go for 2 months (give or take) with no income.
I work for some chauvanistic asshole who does nothing for my resume, and is a blubbering idiot!
I don't want to come back here after having the baby.
There are so many other things that I just can't even think of...

This is all some crazy SHIZZELL!!

I am trying to process it all.

Adam is worried that he may end up living out the least favorite part of his dream - being a HIGH SCHOOL TEACHER. So what is he doing?? Looking into teaching high school! This is so frustrating for me because I know this is NOT what he wants to do. He wants his own lab, and to teach Grad students. This may not be attainable, as he has not published enough, and the field is so competitive.

So, maybe he will teach more and do less research.

Or, maybe he will teach college and do less research.

Or, maybe he will teach at a community college and do even less research and get shitty pay.

Or maybe he will teach high school and do no research, and make average pay.

Or maybe he will work in industry instead, and do none of the things he loves.

Which means maybe he will travel 4-5 days a week.

Or maybe he can get a job at NIH, or CDC, or something and do only research, but not be a professor.

Or maybe he can work at a semi-private high school rather than public.

Or maybe he can work for Merck or some big pharmaceutical company and not teach or run his own lab.

Or maybe we can move to Bloomington, like Charles and Tina, and he can get an assistant professor, or some academia position in the "fly mecca" of the US. (this is I guess my secret hope, unless there is something in the Pacific Northwest he can get!!!)